Simply put: I'm me. Take me as I am.
There have been many times when I felt (believed) that I wasn’t good enough. There are still moments throughout my days where I question who I am: intelligence, credentials, capability? When I was younger my insecurities were more focused on others and why I wasn’t accepted by other groups of people. I always felt that I was “tolerated.” But in reality the chubby (fat) girl is only kept around in case the others needed comic relief. I knew deep down that I was joke to my “friends”, but as long as they let me hang with them I was “ok” with it.
Today, I am not necessarily the same overweight adolescent seeking approval from my peers. I am the overweight, educated African American woman that works at an Institution of Higher Education; I am precisely ½ of the minority staff in my department. While my ethnicity hasn’t presented an obstacle yet, there isn’t a day that goes by where I second guess if I am good enough for my job. My boss willingly assigns tasks to me that are worthy of space on my resume and I still find a way to think of myself as unfit for the job. You see, the issue at this point is that my insecurities aren’t made from others, but it’s rooted inside of me.
This is the day that I am saying “NO!” to feeling [believing] that I’m not good enough. I’ve allowed my secular thoughts to overshadow the truth in God’s words. I’ve believed the enemy and have stunted my own growth. I’m stagnant simply because I’ve chosen to be.
Well guess what? There will be no more of this foolishness. You know why? Because I am God’s daughter. God said that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139: 14). I am beautiful. I am also intelligent! Shoot! I have a degree…with my name on it; MY NAME. More importantly, I know that God is God and that he loves me. And lastly, God wouldn’t allow me to endure anything that he knew I wasn’t capable of succeeding in. John 8:32 states “And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
I want to be free. I’m gonna be free. I AM FREE!
God, today (and from now on) I disagree with the enemy’s lie that I am inferior. I will stand on the truth that you have equipped me with everything I need to take on life’s daily challenges. I believe in your word. I am priceless. I am enough.